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I haven’t posted in a long time. Sorry,
everyone Josh. So hello again, reader (Josh). I really need to get this off my mind, because it’s frustrating me. And I don’t usually stay frustrated for long.
About a week and a half ago, I heard about a job opening for the Global Business Center at school. I happened about this information through a simple conversation with a girl that I met while volunteering at a global competition here. At the time, I didn’t think I needed a job. But the next day, I realized it would be a great opportunity to take up. At the time of volunteering, I had the perfect contacts all at my fingertips, since almost everyone from the Global Business Center was helping to organize this competition. As someone volunteering closely and devoting many hours, they would’ve known me well and it put me a step ahead of other people who may have been candidates for the job. I got really excited about this job opportunity, but I had other things on my mind and kept putting back talking to someone about applying to the job opening. Over the next few days, I got a lot of encouragement from different upperclassmen to go for the job opening and give it a try. By the time I finally talked to one of the advisers in the center, the job was already taken. It was taken by another freshman girl, who is actually in my freshmen business class.
I’m not sure why, of all things in life, this is what has frustrated me to the point of not being able to get it off my mind.
But the thing is I am sure why. God set this up for me, set up this golden opportunity. Right place, right time. Unexpected, unimaginable. Those four things are God’s recipe for something incredible. And I didn’t do my part. I waited, I procrastinated. I succumbed to laziness, I succumbed to fear. I let myself lose. And I know the reason why I’m bitter is because this isn’t just my fault, this is a situation where God’s hand was in it, and my heart wasn’t. And it just makes it that much worse to know that God is good and God is here, but if I’m not willing and obedient, He can’t carry out his plan.
But God’s hand was in this. And God’s hand is in everything. To remember that I’m in good hands always gives me hope. My mom bought me this verse-of-the-day mini calendar thing. I thought it was cheesy and so not me, but I’ve been using it. And daily, it brings me encouragement. Some days more than others, but today especially. March 13th reads:
But he (Jesus) said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I (Paul) will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power my rest on me.
- 2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV)
That’s good, real good. Jesus says to me, “I am grace, I am perfection”. His power rests on me. So maybe I’m like a bitter melon. This Chinese vegetable, that when translated directly is bitter melon. It’s so bitter on the inside when you take a bite, but on the outside it’s a pretty green and shaped like a beautiful flower when sliced and stir-fryed. I’m bitter on the inside right now, but Christ washes over me with his beautiful love. Grace, perfection, power. It transcends my bitterness.
So I’m heading to the undergraduate career services now in the business school. Let’s see what comes out of this. His grace is more than what I think is sufficient. His power is perfect in my inefficiencies. I boast in His power. And I will obey when He calls.
Things that Make me Happy #5.
This humble little town where so many lives where changed. I saw God move last weekend, and it is manifesting itself in my girls. I see them so much closer to each other, I could not feel closer to them than I do now, and I’m just excited to see what will come of all of this. Already, a couple of girls have been radically changed and done really bold moves. It just leaves me in awe and wonder of God and how big and beautiful His plans are.
At the end of this video, the speaker mentions a line that her daughter says. They are buying a flashlight in a store and her daughter turns on the flashlight, but it’s ineffective, because they’re in a brightly lit space. So her 5-year old daughter says, “Mom, can we please go find some darkness?”
FIND SOME DARKNESS. Yes. Isn’t that the point of being a light? It’s to shine, but how can you shine visibly and effectively if it’s already bright? You can’t. You can’t.
As a church and being among a fellowship, I am a light among many, creating a light that shines brighter than if it were just myself, like one atom in the enormous sun. I guess if we were like candles, the community allows us to light another person when their flame has gone out. But for those of us who are shining bright and burning strong, we are called to reach out to darkness. If we are the light, we have nothing to fear. We have a whole community of lights to help us stay strong, and we have Christ the brightest and most eternally lasting of all lights. So what’s keeping us? What’s keeping me? Go. And. Do.
EEEEEEEEE. This photo is SO precious.
But AHHHHHH, you know what is just as precious. A girl that I knew throughout Chinese school, and now I have been reunited with in a college course showed me this picture. And what’s beautiful about that is that she showed this to me, because she told me that she’s going to mention me in her personal statement. Wow. I, wow, I’m honored.
I guess this is what I live for, not to be recognized. But to be genuinely and naturally happy and show love through little unexpected notes in a way that gets to people. I don’t want to do anything for my own glory, but to be a bridge to let people see His glory. To be a mirror that reflects His glory. To be a vessel that is used for His glory. That is what I desire. I want more of that.
But God’s idea of a fast is less about what we’re against and more about what we’re for.
I hardly know a thing about Lord of the Rings. But I love how this girl who gets rejected, takes it and moves on with her life. And maybe she still holds the pain, but she doesn’t let that bring her down. She goes on to defeat one of the most deadly and feared of the enemy. That. is. so. cool.
I would love to be someone like her. Someone who can deal with pain like that. I have been blessed throughout my whole life, and I cannot even being to imagine how I would respond to deep hurt and hardship. But I know one day it will come, and I want to respond like Eowyn does.
She may be no man, but she’s got more strength than a lot of ‘em out there. And she’s just as gentle, beautiful, and loving while she’s at it.